Calling it quits.
Journal Entry:
Mon Nov 16, 2009, 5:54 AM
Hey everyone, that is, whoever's watching me, or still listening/reading.
I've been dormant for so long, and I think that as far as poetry is concerned I have had the wind taken out of my sails. I don't know what it is that happened, or when it did, but somehow all the metaphors in my mind dried up. And I think now is as good a time as any, now that I'm older, to call it quits, bury the hatchet, and give up the ghost.
I will be leaving my work up here for posterity, and for my own reasons, so feel more than welcome to browse my gallery. I may still post once in a while, but I don't think that will make much of a ripple in the ocean of great work here.
For what it's worth, the support of anyone and everyone who has read my work has been an amazing experience over the past four years.
I know that there are some out there, two in particular, who I have wronged, and maybe even a heart that I have broken. But within the confines of this haven I have found catharsis, and release, and I hope that all of these wounds are healed and have been forgiven.
To anyone who stumbles across this page and wants to contact me, or just wants to chat, I'm on facebook, and I'm told my name is pretty uncommon, so just search for Joss Raine. I'll be pretty easy to find.
Thanks to deviantart for being my outlet, my passion, and for holding within it's walls the whispers of my past, its heights and its depths, the love and the pain, the fear and elation.
Every breath that ever passed someones lips that was mine, I am glad to have in some way made a connection.
I hope. one day, I will get the chance to meet those who have touched my heart, and those whose lives I've been blessed to be a part of in this place.. maybe in another life I will.
Until then, from the bottom of my heart, thankyou deviantart.
I am sorry to Kayradim for abusing the respect you showed me by being callouse.
I am sorry to Radiopistola for all the ways we hurt each other, and for the harshness of my last words to you, maybe the last I will ever get to say to you. You never deserved them. I am just a petty child at heart, and I can be cruel when I am weak.
Last of all, I am sorry to hightilidie, because without your help and support and love at a time when I had none, I may never have made it to where I am, and may not have been the person I am right now. Maybe it was just all something we made up, just for fun, maybe it was real, perhaps I'll never know, because I can't read your mind or know your heart. One thing I do know though, is that you were there for me, and I for you I hope, with affection and hope when the world was black.
I am deeply sorry for ever hurting you, maybe this will make you laugh at how stupid I am, or maybe you will completely understand. Or maybe you won't ever read it.
Just know I'm not seeking forgiveness, but just confession to everyone my deep regret.
I will leave you with this:
When all else fails, I know there is always hope here in the anonymity of words, and an ocean of beauty. And I hope that everyone out there can find somewhere they can place all of their fears, and lay them out without regret.
Thank you again,
and all my love,
Joss Moxie Raine.
- Mood:
Tearful - Listening to: Ffa1985 - The Bloody Beetroots
- Reading: Pride and Prejudice and Zombies
- Drinking: Water
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I wholly prefer the silence to the rasp of depleted woes.
~Midnight-Rooftop
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Everyone is chasing something.
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I wholly prefer the silence to the rasp of depleted woes.
~Midnight-Rooftop
So take the time to catch up then.
But after that I can't promise anything.
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Everyone is chasing something.
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I wholly prefer the silence to the rasp of depleted woes.
~Midnight-Rooftop
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